I remember the times when we first started out in the workforce having just finished the exams and i said i myself -I'm gonna buy myself a prada or gucci bag with my tenth pay- And now that i've gotten pay more than 10 times, i think back and say oh boy was i gullible in the past. haha.. somehow with everyday expenses, indulging in something that would make me happy "once in a while" has taken most of my pay away.. plus having to pay for the japan trip, going to KL, having facials and what-not..

I'd say i'm happy, but i really should start saving. Or perhaps work more at the esplanade but i'm fast reaching my 500 bucks cap. Next week would be three nights in a row. wahahaha... tchaikovsky festival.. and it's gonna be good!!

It's the first day of december today. christmas month!!!! so here's the season to be jolly everyone!!!! hahaha i just bought christmas presents for my parents and so did mimi. *wink

Gonna meet her and cher at raffles city now! hahaha... then we'll be off to anne's place. good day to all!

Was too tired to come online to express the huge amount of angst i had inside me.

He offered to send me down to the esplanade and i was thankful. But alas, i received a good 10 minute chiding about my grade i had gotten for the damned shirley module. He didn't even bother listening to what i had to say. The fact that the goddamn shirley required a change every week, the fact that the whole assignment stressed me out so much i cried for half an hour in silence whilst trying to think of what that bitch really wanted. And all he said was you know what, it's actually all because you don't read the newspapers that's why you've got such a low grade. He said i spent wasteful amounts of time on the phone and on the internet. On the internet yes i would agree but hello i talk on the phone only once every other day. so what the hell!

Then after the chiding she suddenly said that she had a buy one get one free movie ticket at cineleisure. So despite my having made plans with other people today i have to go watch a movie with her tonight. Watching the movie is no problem at all, but she really should have told me earlier so that i would't have agreed to other plans isn't it? And the date is expiring tomorrow so it HAS to be today. And Joe is going to kill me cos he wanted to plan an entire day out for all of us and it got shifted from last week to this week cos i told him last week i didn't have an entire day free till today.

The last straw just came when they came to pick me up. Due to the nature of last night's show it ended really late. Means more money for me, but they had to hang around somewhere out there. I was supposed to have finished at 10 but i ended at 1120 instead. And i knew they were waiting so i changed as fast as i could already but still they were extremely displeased. They said how come they saw so many people coming out but i was so late. Those people were bloody hell patrons and i had to bloody hell do house sweep and have a de-brief!? There's just this really huge problem and i have no idea how to rectify it. How can i tell them that they absolutely DO NOT have to come and pick me up at all because sometimes i really do not know when the show would end? And i don't see the problem with having to take the mrt home at 11 plus when it's still running. And she would always say "you don't understand" Well who is to understand me then!? does she understand me at all?! I hate having to go into the car and then receive complaints about them having to wait for me and how come it's so bloody long when hello i've had a tiring night at work so i'd really rather just go home on my own then i can have my own private thinking time. (that includes not have her call me at 1145 to ask where i am cos duuuh i'm on my way home)

Stuck. pissed off. argh.

GASP. guess who i saw at jurong point!?????? haha can't help but sound so groupie-fied here but in a twist of fate i saw the two singapore idol finalists. :) During the exam period yans and i were ranting about how we could have gone to catch syl and taufik at some place in orchard and voila they appear right in the heart of jurong where i was going to have lunch after church service. wahahahahah!!!! And i called yans to share the joy but she didn't pick up. Mel and i stood there and just looked. hahaha..then they started throwing caps. then the scene got a bit chaotic, so we got a bit freaked out, but it was funny.. whilst the fans screamed and raised their hands in unison for the idols to throw one cap over, mel and i waved 2 hands in unison symbolising a no please do not throw here! we wouls have died in the stampede. haha...

Anyway that was jurong point drama. There's been quite a bit of drama going on at the esplanade too. Sheesh stupid rich people who think the world is theirs just cos they've got filthy amounts of money. *spits*

Oh yes kl pple! haah sorry the date has been changed to the 14th instead. this time super confirm cos we've bought tickets already. :) I'll see you guys soon!! haha and my results would actually be coming out on the 15th. The module i was most worried for came in the mail yesterday and i didn't know till some classmates informed me and it almost caused a heart seizure as i waited for my mum to open the envelope up. Amidst her one million word mutterings on my paper, i survived the grade.yeeehaaaa!!!!!!!

Haha.. took quite a bit of pics over the last few days too... but no time to upload them now.. gotta rush off to the esplanade again. haha hope my tummy won't hurt!! Pilates is cool man.. though the instructor was a tad fast thus i couldn't regulate my breathing.. as in sometimes i'd forget i breathed in that kinda thing.

And oh ya winnie the pooh is actually free for photo taking at raffles city. $!#!@#

I just had the most divine dessert ever. :) :) :) Thanks yans for the recommendation. Oh man just sitting in perfect ambience whilst it rained outside and the cake sent such a warm tingling sensation.... to top it all they played emi fujita. -smiles blissfully-

Taxi was good too. and i bought a skirt from *gasp gasp*. haha... if tanya wasn't here i'd never have gone in. Well they actually do have some good stuff there amidst the bad stuff on display!! If you dig hard enough la that is..

I had such a good laugh when *flirty asswipe* flashed across my hp. -grins-

All hail the nuns who will not sucuumb!

Haha the new motto for my nunnery. The past few days have been jam packed so it's good. no time to think about meagre stuff. :) Catching up with yanling and mel was fun.... then i had tuition (finally) and i resumed work at the esplanade. Though quite alot of shit happened at my door and i felt like i was going through another round of interviews (by patrons), it felt good to be an usher again. heh and i got to enjoy the songs of ABBA coupled with the grand finale which i adore, thus it was a good day.

My legs are crying out now man, having walked and walked and walked with tanya through orchard. Haha the girl's so tired she's gone right to bed.

Loose threads have not been tied up but they will be soon.

Yans, cher, tingting, hui and angelene... hang in there for the exams and best of luck!!!! *whips out the pompoms and cheers*

You left me in a realm of uncertainties, and now it's even worse.

My heart still beats, but on a different tone. Now i'm certain, that I would never allow myself to be taken on a ride like a fool again.

The sky is a weird shade of blue this morning! Ya finally i have the chance to stand by the window for five minutes and gaze at the sky to try and figure out how come the sky looks cloudless but the blue is too dark so perhaps there is a layer of cloud.

I woke up to a breakfast-less morning. And a whole load of clothes to sun out. Sigh. But i'm still happy! Post exam euphoria- Been listening to my newly acquired cds and just lazing about, watching the telly.. finally caught shark tale last night and it was funnny! Gonna meet my bunz anne, grace and mimi later for dinner! hahaha looks like i'll be frequenting town quite often.

Winnie the pooh was a tad disppointing. He was too slim! sigh and the kids around us were just jumping here and there non stop. -headache- haha perhaps we should have abducted one child and gone in. Then we wouldn't have felt so overaged. but oh wells the day went alright and i surivived! So did yans. *wink*

Mimi!!! and i blew away quite a bit of money yesterday unknowingly till we counted at the end of the day. haha -flips-

On not so good news, I really wish you'd be much more polite.

-heart stops for yans-

She'll be on my mind the whole of tomorrow.

We can do this comrade!

I'm all excited now after having read Kimberly's blog cos this month may be bonus month. Halleluia! I want to run out to the atm to check now. Haha but if it's not bonus month my face will just fall in front of the machine.

Finally one huge burden off my chest and i can breathe a little easier now but my nose is still leaky. The weather is so nice and rainy but i can't seem to fall asleep. I'm trying to come up with a good plan for human geog studying from now till wednesday. With the exception of monday of course, because that is winnie day! Can't really believe that my company is going to be him, but let's just see how things go.

4 more days and counting.

Hopes dashed for math. *sigh* The paper had been a killer and i was practically ripping my hair out in sheer agony. I went with the go on to the next question if you don't know tactic and oh boy i was left with quite a few gaps in the paper which i had to crap out. Yeah... for the first time in my life, math was crapping it out. Why? they had so many justify your answer kinda questions. And they even asked us to discuss the similarities between the model method and the algebra method. what the fa la la la la!

Anyway with that behind me, i am so glad to have had a geog discussion with raihan on the phone last night. The both of us conceptualized plate teconics and now the notes i have come up with seem more comprehensive. Last night had to be the most productive night ever. With just one cuppa coffee my will to study was strong! haha for once right. Cos i'm really f.r.e.a.k.i.n.g out already. Thought math would have been the only good thing to happen but now it's a goner.

Two more days to physical geog. -psycho-es myself.- Finish up glaciers and alluvial landforms today and i would have finished one round of studying. Then i can start attempting the study questions, rip my hair out and pray for the best.

But i guess even after saturday i wouldn't be able to breathe. I took a look at the past year human geog questions and flipped. Write an essay on globalisation: the end of geography. How about... geography: the end of me.

-five minute mourning-

On the brighter side of things, Cher called me this morning from the airport! that girl is off to china for the next five days. Heh though i was semi concious, it was nice to hear her chirpy voice till i asked her what time her flight was (8.45) and what time it was then (830). !!!!!! that nuthead thought the plane wouldn't fly off that soon. So with a hurried goodbye and well wishes for her trip to be really enjoyable, i guess she ran off to her gate. Haha.. then i plopped right back to sleep.

My flu is getting better! Thanks to mum's medicine that she got from the doc cos she's taken ill too. Hope i stop wheezing by saturday so that i won't have to sir through another *sniffles* exam. So irritating to have to keep sucking the mucus up then blowing it all out periodically. Haha and yesterday halfway through the exam i had an inkling of a haa-chew! but it just couldn't come out and i shed a tear instead. comical.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! -drowns myself in glaciers-

My first uni examination in about 3 hours time.

-gitters-

Yesterday had been good! I cooked lovely pasta for my parents and they said it was nice. haha such a nice feeling to cook for others and i love chopping the ingredients up. Melt butter in the hot pan and throw in the garlic, the smell is heavenly! Which is also why i love frying garlic so much, though it's relaly just, garlic. heh.

On top of that, i finally signed up for a pilates class with mum which will commence at the end of november. woohoo haha finally we got out butts moving to sign up for the class. And so what the heck am i doing you must be wondering, when i am right smack in the midst of exam preperations. oh well geez i do not know myself! Because i have successfully planned out everything i want to do after my last paper instead of focussing more on what i have to cover for geog. haha sigh...

It's times in the library when you've read the text till the words start jumping about, so you look out of the huge window panes and it's raining and all of a sudden you start to space out because it's just so comforting to look at the rain cascade down the window panes whilst you're safe and warm in a snug jacket. Then i start thinking about what i want to do once the darned exams are over and ya da ya da...

And ta daah i've got pilates classes to attend, and a facial at hacch lined up. Haha then there's work at the esplanade, and the rest of the time shall be allocated to the cleaning out of my wardrobe, organisation of my photo album, trying out new recipes at home and at other people's homes, and lastly of course meeting up with all whom i've sadly neglected for the past few months or so.

Once again, reality bites back and i shall scamper off to the old dusty textbook to figure out why, global warming may not have been solely the consequence of man's actions. But man is to be blamed of course, because we are such inconsiderate fools who constantly challenge nature. My eyes nearly rolled out when i watched "now see this" yesterday and there were 2 retards who walked along a path with lava spewing right behind them. They are so called the volcano analysts. Well I'd give anything to be able to see hot fresh lava spew out from the surface of the earth, but unfortunately i have no money, nor guts to risk my life.

I had typed in a long post yesterday and the blogger died on me. Sigh but nvm it was one of my endless complaints post anyway.

i'm in the nie com lab now! haha feeling quite satisfied from the good breakfast i had just now, then i came and realised that i had forgotten to bring my math table along so here i am printing it out and then my cashcard had a problem so i had to borrow from the girl next to me. sigh what is the problem with my cashcard!!!

Got a fast reply from my math tutor as well. Woo he is so efficient. haha I shall zoom back out next to mimi now and complete my revision exercise before lunch break. It's really a whole new attitude when i wake up to a day of doing math rather than reading geography cos it's getting pretty boring.

Woke up to something quite unusual this morning. Good in one aspect, bad in another. But it gave an explanation to my temperament so oh well -cringes over-

I need to spit all my venom out! Hope it will dissolve after tonight's viewing of shark tale.

-Striding on an all time high-